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#IdeaSwap: Letter

11 Sep

Dear 18 years old me…

I know how do you feel now, terrible isn’t it?
I also know that five years later, your heart ache will still not completely cure yet.

Life is so cruel, I know it too…
Even your parents yelling to each other everyday or somehow they’re not talking to each other at all, make sure you bear it well, don’t forget that no matter what both of them are loving you.

Love is stupid, but you don’t know it yet…
Also you have no idea that you will choose a wrong guy a view months later, you will end up dating him for two years and will experience the most dramatic and stupid break up ever.

You will get through many ups and downs in the future. There will come the day when you feel over excited and there also will come the day when you feel like wanna kill yourself. But don’t do it, don’t kill yourself… because you soon will meet a best people in your life. Few of them will become your best friend, few of them will become your favorite person, few of them will turn out to be your enemy… also one of them, you going to have a tragic-romantic love story with him, a story that you often fancy when you read it in the novel.
I’m not saying life will be easy, and we already realize that our life will be slightly different with other person. Guess what? We were right.

Keep trying hard, keep thinking that you will have a good life, because you will.
Don’t lose hope, somehow you will learn that this is not a worst life someone can live. Everybody have their own story, some of them are way harder than yours that you later will stop pitying yourself and choose to be happy…

…And you will be happy.

This is me, the 23 years old you.

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#IdeaSwap: If I Were A Boy

9 Sep

Have you ever wish to be born as someone else? If you’re boy, have you ever wonder how if you were a girl and if you’re a girl, how it’ll become if you were a boy?

If I were a boy?
I bet I’ll become a decent one. If not I’ll just become the annoying type that most girl will going to hate. Yeah, I don’t think there is any middle standard for a “boy” me.
Let me use my imaginary here, to put my girl personality into a boy one.

Mari awali semuanya dengan, Mungkin

Gue adalah cowok yang pendiam, yang ga bisa ngelucu atau sekedar bercanda-canda jorok sama kebanyakan orang. Karena menurut gue cowok yang bermulut cewek alias berisik dan macam komentator nyasar itu butuh dibasmi dari muka bumi ini.
Gue adalah cowok yang menyebalkan karena terkesan tukang pilih-pilih dan ga suka hidup susah. Prinsip gue adalah, laki-laki itu ga butuh hidup sok susah kalau bisa hidup enak hanya karena stereotype yang menyatakan kalo cowok yang ga pernah hidup susah itu artinya ga bakal bisa survive. Ah kata siapa? Itu sih tergantung lo nya aja tau diri apa ga… Taraf hidup itu bagian dari takdir, kalau memang temen lo mampu hidup lebih enak dari lo, ya jangan banyak omong, ga perlu pengumuman lah kalau lo sirik. Tapi bukan berarti gue ga bisa apa-apa. Biar begini juga gue tetap laki-laki yang suatu hari bakal menapaki masa depannya sendiri. Itu makanya gue selalu mendoktrin diri gue sendiri buat jadi cowok cerdas, cekatan, dan serba bisa. Itu modal, biar survive.
Gue adalah cowok yang susah naksir cewek dan susah ditaksir cewek. Kenapa? Gue senyum aja jarang, gimana mau ada yang naksir gue? Yang ada cewek-cewek kalau ngeliat gue macam ngeliat anjing yang di jidatnya ada tempelan, “Awas anjing galak!”. Gue juga susah naksir cewek, bukan semata-mata karena ketinggian standar, susah aja kali nemuin cewek yang kira-kira mau sama anjing galak. Ditambah, gue bukan cowok yang naksir sama cewek cantik, buat gue cewek cantik itu cuma enak dilihat, masalah hati ga ada hubungannya sama muka lo.
Gue adalah laki-laki yang setia kawan. Karena mencari teman itu bukan hal gampang buat gue, jadi ketika gue menemukan beberapa orang yang bisa gue sebut teman, I’ll treasure them no matter what.
Gue adalah cowok yang dekat dengan Mama, karena sejak kecil keburu terbiasa memandang beliau sebagai makhluk rapuh yang butuh dilindungi terus-terusan sama anak laki-laki jagoannya ini… Padahal dalam hati gue tau benar, Mama adalah wanita paling kuat yang ada di dunia.
Gue adalah laki-laki tegas yang mengerti benar apa yang gue mau dalam hidup gue. Gue calon laki-laki sukses, masa depan gue cerah dan menjanjikan. Bukan karena kepedean, bukan juga mendahului kehendak Tuhan. Itu namanya optimis.
Gue adalah cowok yang selalu berusaha ga mempermainkan dan menyakiti perasaan cewek, apa sih gunanya jadi cowok model begitu? Ga guna. Jika suatu hari gue berkeluarga, gue akan memastikan istri dan anak-anak gue menjadi orang-orang yang paling bahagia di dunia. Begitu juga dengan orangtua dan saudara-saudara gue… Gue yang akan membuat mereka bahagia.

Do I sounds perfect already?
Yes, I did… Mungkin itu sebabnya Tuhan menciptakan gue sebagai perempuan, bukan laki-laki. Karena manusia pada dasarnya ga ada yang sempurna.
Just a fun fact, gue sering dapet “pengakuan” dari temen-temen cewek gue, yang bilang kalo gue cowok pasti mereka naksir sama gue. Awalnya gue selalu mikir temen-temen gue kena semacam gangguan mental karena bisa-bisanya gue berkandidat potensial jadi laki-laki idaman mereka. Tapi setelah gue baca apa yang barusan gue tulis, they’re not entirely wrong, for a few women I might be their ideal guy.

Then again, I’m just an ordinary girl, a girl who far from perfection. If I were a boy, maybe the people who got me on their back will be the lucky ones. But even so I’m just a girl, I’ll do as much as I can to be that girl, a girl who don’t need to imagining “if I were a boy” just to feel happy, a girl who always thankful being born as a girl… and as a very blessed one too.

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My favorite August!

1 Aug

Well, apparently I need to find another word to open my post here… because hello and hi are seems over-used already. But whatever, hello! hi!

Actually I still have no idea what to write today, planning to make the topics list this afternoon but I didn’t make it, I’m too busy catching up on my social life which is have been completely abandoned for this past month.
But today is kinda fun, met my friend and talked and laughed and also… I did some shopping for my make-up holiday supplies! Talking about make-up, I love them! I’m not that great on make-up thingy, especially when someone ask me to put a make-up on their face, I just can’t do it at all, I’m so bad on drawing and I think putting make-up on face is somehow require a good ability of drawing skill too, so yeah… I can’t do it very well. But I can put a make-up on my own face pretty good, even some people said it was really good, notably the eyes part. I have this so called a signature eye make-up which I wear daily, maybe I’ll blog about it somehow later.
But why I suddenly talking about make-up now? That’s now what I want to talk about tonight…

Okay, let’s get back to the topic now, which as you can read on this post’s title is…… August!
August is my favorite month of all year. Why? Well, obviously because August is my birthday month. But feeling happy about a birthday now, naaah.., I’m not. Turning 23rd soon is not as exciting as when I turned 11th and finally able to buy my first wand at Ollivander, okay stop, we’re not even on Potter’s world now.
Frankly speaking, I’m not really sure why I like August, most people usually hate this month… Because on August most schools and many institutions are just getting started, well when holiday is over, people hate it. And also, August in my country is kinda hot, I mean, the weather, August is regularly a peak of the dry season. Even so, this year’s dry season is not as bad as usually, or maybe it will getting bad later in the middle of August or something.
But I still love August anyway… Which I just realized now after writing it, I have no idea at all why I love it.
Still I hope this August will bring something good for me, for everyone. 2013 is kinda rough to me so far, so I really wish the rough trace will vanished and everything going to be simply better. Having a preferable life for my 23rd birthday present will be more than enough, I’m not complaining here but hoping for something is not a crime anyway.

So… Have a great August everyone! :)

Meet up with the gir……

8 May

Meet up with the girls today!! ♥


… And we’re accidentally wear all flowery pattern on our outfit. Love the pattern BTW.